This feeling sux!

I’ve forgotten the feeling of being…..loved, cared and showered with concern. =\

Definitely not goodbye

My bestfriend’s leaving tomorrow for Brisbane and I don’t know what to feel.

h20-ised

Signed up for aquarobics class as part of my 2011 resolution and today was the first lesson. I HAD SO MUCH FUN! Seriously! Plus point; Rozi was there with me! Awesome k ada geng! Selenge sama2. Hehe! Nurul’s gonna join us next lesson. Confirm kecoh! Hehe!

Many may find aquarobics kental and embarrasing. At least that’s what I thought. But tawakkal je lah. Nak healthy (+ lose weight) punya pasal. So I should swallow my ke-paisey-an. Furthermore, you don’t feel sticky and icky from sweating after a workout. But really, after you get the hang of it, you’ll forget about being embarrased and will concentrate on your moves and postures. I didn’t even give a damn on the small audience looking at us as if we’re some exhibits. In my head I was like, “what see see? at least i’m making an effort here to lose weight! you’re just standing there wasting time coz you’re just plain lazy! *sticks out tongue*” cey macam paham sak aku! haha! But actually no lah.. “nak tengok, tengok lah. dah biasa jadi centre of attention lagi pun!” HAHAHAHA!

Hopefully after the 12 sessions is over, I’ll manage to lose at least tak banyak, 2kg pun jadilah! See.. Saya sungguh tak tamak. Bagus betol budak Nisha ni.

Looking forward to next week’s session! Fats, lemak and tayar around perot, GO AND DIE! I don’t wanna see your face again! This is goodbye!

rezolusyen

It’s 2011 and I feel that I should start (or at least, TRY) blogging regularly again. Read my old blog (which I updated almost every day, mostly with unimportant details) and had a sudden rush of emotions. It’s a nice feeling lah. It’s like talking to an old friend about things that only the two of you understand. And since it’s already 2011, I guess I should just make BLOGGING REGULARLY as one of my resolutions!

My other resolutions include:

a) spending more time with people that matters!

So far,

- I’ve tried my very best to go home early from work at least once a weeknight to spend time with my parents

- Plan meet-ups with friends (but selalu kena reject or buih. kesian!)

Runni’s Birthday Surprise (08/01/11)

Karaoke & Monopoly Deal (14/01/11)

b) kick negative/unappreciative/penyamun/minta kena smack people outta my life

So far,

- kicked 1 person out & wished that I never knew him!!!! waste time only! URGHHH!!

c) take better care of my health a.k.a trytoloseweight

So far,

- Signed up for Aquarobics class with Rozi & Nurul. ;D WE CAN DO IT, GIRLS!!

d) be a better muslim

So far,

- Have yet to skip my religious class on every Wednesday. Syabas, Inspector Sahab! =8B

e) learn to cycle

So far,

- Research on the internet for tips or any good bomoh beskal =__=”

f) learn to play a musical instrument

So far,

- Done nothing, zero, zilch!

g) learn to drive and park the car confidently & bukan mcm confident only

So far,

- watch people drive and admire from afar. LOL!

Two words

Customers, indiscriminately, should friggin understand that they stand in the position of a guest. But that doesn’t make whosoever’s serving them their fkin servant. Having that much self righteous self-respect should reflect equally with how you respect others. It doesn’t matter what color you are, or what language you speak but if you have problems with the frequency that we are working in, you’re just a ticket away from where you flew from. two words. fuck off. (:

x+1 (the endless possibility of a bad day)

On some days when it can be so potent, you can almost feel it coming swirling in your system. It could be how your morning had dissolved leaving you blind to your own intuition and impulses. It’s like walking on wet floors with slippery soles, shouldering an innate sense of insecurity that hits you right at the back of your head like you’re gonna slip and fall at every single step. It doesn’t matter what you preconceive, the deal is usually signed, sealed, delivered and almost if not always, inevitable. Surely, every bad thought can fester into a bad day. And it doesn’t take much but a tiny catalyst that will paint your face yellow insulted and sallow. On days like these, you feel almost inadvertedly like a living neuron layered with receptors at every end and the trajections that the world impose is so hard to miss that the truth on several accounts do not emancipate, it simply thickens and amplifies, weighing down on every single logic possible. Yes, if ever my own philosophy over my bleakest day could ever triumph biology, tommorrow I will be a mimosa plant and maybe I will be stepped on even when I shy myself defenseless.

I admit. I am not the rainbow of every optimist.

But like every dark cloud, there’s a silver lining. Me, you, we could all be blind to it and perceive the billowing darkness like a looming storm but if we look hard enough, we’d be impress on how such beauty can outline something indefinitely mortifying.

On days like these, when I’d needed my friends the most to lift my spirits, you guys were there. And I’d hug you the same like how I had hug my beloved sister goodbye at the airport for being my silver lining.

Thanks Mel. Thanks Nisha.

The epitome of time waster

Used to blog (almost) all the time over at my old blog. But not here. Suspect kuat the fengshui kat sini kurang baik ah! ;P

So anyway, I feel like blogging today (after visiting this blog, during the lepak session at lunch time at Liza’s table [sambil chui2 abang encemzzz.teehee!~ *twirl2 tudung*]). The last blog post was by Nadzim, who in case you forgot, is the guest writer of this blog. Not that I mind (since he writes well sampai kadang-kadang aku pun tak faham) but I have a *coughs* reputation to maintain so… I decided to blog today though I’ve experienced numerous cock mind block today. Tak percaya, you can ask my secretary, Liza. Talking is a torture for me today. Had to dig my mind dalam2 just to find one single (simple pulak tu) word. Suspect semalam banyak makan (kuih sarang) semut.

Actually right… I don’t exactly have a topic to blog about or a story to tell. I just want to spout nonsense and pray hard that it makes sense and someday my word will be quoted in a literature book or something.  Hmmm.. maybe I should write a poem ala Nadzim so maybe someday I could use it during a speech on my wedding day.

Love,

White as dove,

High up above,

Wear a glove.

=___=

PHAIL!

Or maybe… since Nadzim writes poem, I should write pantuns! Which remind me of a pantun which I wrote during Secondary school for my Malay lesson.

Pemadam,

Pensil,

Jangan kita suka cancel.

THAT scored me a “jumpa saya”. =(

But THAT to me was a masterpiece! Awesome what the pantun!!

WAIT! I just have an inspiration for another pantun… here goes:

Angkat telefon cakap.. “Wei!”

Jangan kita suka buih.

OMG i’m so lame! I think I just wasted  5 minutes of your time with my awesome blog post. NYAHAHA! I think I should be an author or a playwright. Confirm the world will be a better place. =8B

Actually 2 of my lecturers did commented that I write pretty well! At first I was damn proud ah.. happy lonjat2 sumer… but then… I sense  some cynicism lalu saya berkata di dalam hati, “YEAH RIGHT!!!~~”.